Fibromyalgia awareness day is May 12. I’m hoping to get the word out about the invisible illnesse. Please wear purple on this day to show you care. Or find me on fb Savanna Thompson and write me ill send you an invite to the page. Please help me spread the word <3
This feels so real, yet in my heart i know its not. im excited yet scared. im so interested yet im not. im nervous and sweating at that thought, yet im cold and shiver when i snap back to life. this dream is more and more a part of my real life..i feel connected to you yet i dont know you.. your a stranger that ive never met…but you feel so familier… im so lost in my head im so confused what am i to do? do i tell myself a lie everyday? do i go on living like this never happened? i cant shake this dream i cant shake this one bit… i just want the truth what is to come from this dream?? this reacurring dream?? is this a sign? and if so for what?
Dancing, she dacned up and down the halls.
Laughing, she laughed at her fears.
Dreaming, she dreampt you up, so she thought.
Her heart beat is the song she danced to, her heart breaking was the melody.
Her tears glistened to the music her heart played.
You came along the way, you played along with her song.
You have given her what she dreamed all this time, HOPE.
The lake sparkled in the moon light she said. As she jumped in you called for her.
You called out for her not to jump, but she took the leap anyhow.
Because you where there you made her heart lighter.
Because you gave her the time she was happy.
But if only you knew you where too little too late.
If only she had’nt jumped too soon you could have stoped it all.
You would have turned back the hands of time slowly fading her past.
You cant tame a wild horse… not that easily.
You tried your hardest, Everyone knew you did.
But to you even that was’nt enough. Stop now stop thinking.
Go get her. She’s waiting for you, she’s not gone just yet.
You can save her after all, being the hero she needs.
It’s not too late to jump in after her.
But when you jumped did you stop to see the water around you?
did you see? did you see its not water?
Tis liquid of course, a sea of lost souls.
which is she? Where is she? Can’t you spot her yet?
Listen to her, is’nt her voice calling you?
or is’nt it?
They have’nt had enough had they? They where there too.
The ones that did this to her, they where there.
she begged and she pleaded for them to leave her be.
Why was’nt it them that jumped? Why was it you who had to save her like this?
Why could’nt they let her be?
They kept poking and proding at her till she found it.
The breaking point where she was lost to all. Even you.
So you’re still confused?
The girl you love had jumped off the deep end just to be with you…
You’re not running to save her, she’s running to save you.
You were bullied to this and she was your safe haven.
But she found you too late did’nt she?
She’s hoping to find you again. Hoping to dance again.
To sing and laugh with you.
she’s hoping you let her in and let her stay.
she’s fighting for you damnit. Let her win this battle, let her win this war for you.
Sweet, sweet child she’s the brave one whose there to protect you.
this post was just a short story that had popped into my wandering mind. hope you liked it of course.
yours truley
Savie T
I found an old friend, someone who has always kept a bit of hope in my heart. This old friend always smiled upon my grace. She never yelled in anger and if I had fallen on a horrid path, she would calmly speak with me. She’s apart of me this friend she may be young but she’s full of wisdom and love. I’ve loved her for as long as I can remember. She’s given me the mother sence. It’s my job to protect her and to never let go of her. She’s my purest soul. She’s anything and everything I can envy. She is a better me
The worst thing you could have ever done. And you did it. I need to change my life and whoes in it… I’m sorry but I’m done being the only one at fault. You want to say I’m dead to you here let me help. Let me pull the fucking trigger for you. BOOM now I’m gone. I’m sorry but I can’t do this anymore. There is only so much I can take and I’m broken so much now I’m so far gone…I’ve been there for you and you say I’m not when you already know how I do things. All the while you let yourself get hurt with your own thoughts that never happened your words cut me like a knife that slit my throat. In this whole time you probably didn’t even stop to think am I ok either. I bet you didn’t know I was in war with myself and have been. But you shouldn’t care you’ve been busy making this about you. So I’m gone the next time you want to fight with me just think I’m dead now I’m not here… I’m sorry you where hurt but your not the only one.
And so its begins again. You are gone once more. My heart has fallen quickly and hard. My eyes have swollen and filled with tears. My body has shaken trembling with fear. I thought you’d be here for me my friend, yet now I can’t see you anymore. Have you gone? Traveled so far away? Can’t you hear me call? Can’t you hear my cries? My hearts song is slowly losing grip of your memory. My heart beat is slowing down as if I’m beginning to die. Tell me have you found another to take the place of me? Your old friend?
….savie
Like a movie on replay everything keeps playing. Childhood moments when everything was fine. Teen memories when I thought high school was hard and my mom was unfair. But now what’s unfair are the thoughts that keep replaying and won’t leave. Now what’s Harder then high school is trying to forget this.. trying to live on knowing that nothing will be the same. Going on to find myself where I first started….on the field of the war…my war with my own enemy….me
Ok so I thought I would do an about me blog, just so you can get to know me…For starters im Savanna I was born 1991 meaning this year I’ll be 21. I’m the very laid back kind of person but I’m also the kind that if you mess with my family you will pay. I’m not the best speller but I try my best. Like everyone else I have my typeos. I suck at math. My best artistic qualites are poetry, or just writing. I happen to like all forms of art. I dance, I sing, and I draw..paint what not. I don’t follow others I follow myself. I like how I dress without the care if others do. I’m an auntie a little sister, big sister a daughter, cousin, neice and a wife. I’m a bestfriend to alot of people that I love and care for. I gave up smoking at the end of last year which will help improve my singing. I drink from time to time but I dont like the taste of alcohol…which still blows my mind as to why I still drink. I’m the kind of person who likes tattoos and pericings. and so far I have 1 tattoo and 10 pericings I’m done with pericings but not with tattoos. I plan on being in school for alot of my life because I happen to like being educated. I know what I want in life and I’m going to get there with the love and support from my loved ones. I’m like a cat I hate water other then drinking it and bathing…I’ll swim from time to time but I dont care much for it. there is alot to my life story of which I’ll not bore you with. but if you have any questions let me know.
The one and only
Savie T
